Should it Hurt This Much to be a Fan?

If you know me personally you know that I live in Jacksonville Florida and I'm a closet fan of the Jacksonville Jaguars. That's right! I said Closet fan. I was about 15 when the Jaguars came to town and like the entire city I was EXCITED! Who knew that over 15 years later the team that caused so much excitement for me would one day be a major source of almost weekly disappointment. With the team having a nickname like the Cardiac Cats you could only imagine what it's like to be a fan. We have a reputation of being a team that's almost okay. Well, whatever that is. The Jaguars just can't seem to get 'IT' together. When I see people that aren't from Jacksonville if they are men they typically say "what's up with those Jaguars". I always lie and say that I'm not a fan or that I don't follow football. I openly ridicule those brave enough to be Jaguar Fans in public. I do this because I'm a fan to and I'm angry about yet another loss as well. The newscasters even say things like, "if they don't do this or that it will be ANOTHER season of losses". What does that tell you? It's embarrassing that's what it is. Is it this hard to be a Green Bay fan? And, they wear a big block of cheese on their head. I'm not judging I'm just saying. People don't usually just walk around with cheese on their head.

I spoke with my mom after the game on Sunday and she said that after the loss she prayed about it and God told her that she needed to lose the Jaguars. Well, not exactly like that. She mentioned that in church her pastor had told her that she they needed to let go of anything that is causing discontentment in life. For her it's the Jaguars. 

Most of the ex-fans were one time loyal Jaguar fans that grew tired of having their hopes trampled on the verge of a win. Please don't get me wrong I'm not saying the Jaguars are embarrassing to the city we have other major issues like: crime, homelessness, the racist history, an over $350 million dollar (not a typo) courthouse being built when we have had MAJOR funding cuts for education and police among other problems.

People that think that Jacksonville is the most beautiful city they have ever seen obviously haven't been exposed to the gritty underbelly of the city. Years ago, I saw someone get murdered just trying to make a trip to the store and I wasn't in and "urban area" when it happened.  That was traumatizing. I've suffered the loss of a loved ones to violence and seen children get put in the system when they should have been given a chance. So, I think you get that this city has some issues. The Jaguars aren't helping matters. The other problems in the city can be our little secret. But, when it comes to football the whole country is watching (ironic isn't it). Please do better! I want to be able to at the very least be able to say one day that I'm a proud Jaguars fan.

Racially Diverse Not I said Carnival Games for Nintendo Wii

Carnival Games for Nintendo Wii quietly left off the option to be able to change the colors or shades of the characters. I must make mention that there are however black people or should I really say “a black person” in the game. This character works at the Carnival is not a playable. This game has been out for several years. I recently got it and started playing. After a few minutes I noticed you couldn’t change the color of the characters.  I looked on the internet to see if I could see anyone talking about it and didn’t really see anything. This is a problem. I’ve loved video games since the original Nintendo and that’s why this offense is terrible.  We live in a day in age where there is so much diversity. It’s beautiful to see different races and blends of people. Growing up when I would visit my grandmother she did not let me play with anything but black dolls. My mother didn’t care. So when I would visit and we would be in a store and I would try to go for the White Barbie Granny wasn’t having that. I grew up being one of the few black kids at most of the schools I went to. I grew up around different mixtures of people.  I understand my grandmother’s point. She wanted me to know that my color was beautiful and truth be told I probably had about 27 Barbie dolls and only one was black. I digress.  I am a 31 year old black woman I shouldn’t HAVE to play as a specific color every time I play.  How much does it cost to be able to add the option for character shades into a game? How did no one notice during testing of the game? I should be able to play with someone that looks like me! Shame on you Carnival Games! If you are black or really any other race that involves brown color and you’re doing a family games night don’t pick Carnival Games unless you want to be upset. This is not a racially diverse game and they wouldn’t have done it the other way around where all the characters had to be black.  Why does the only Black dude have to WORK there?  Carnival Games 2 is out and I’m not sure if the problem is fixed.  But, I’m pretty much through with them. That was offensive and they don’t get another chance with me.